Was it possible?

Just look back into the past when you were dressed in helplessness and vulnerability 

When your face expressed nothing but a grimace

The time when your present was totally distorted and the future seemed uncertain 

Think, what brought you till here?

What made you tear apart all the insecurities and claw your way out from the dismal reality?

Sure, some people were there around you, to offer you a helping hand 

But, was it possible if you had lost belief in yourself?

Was it possible, if you had not let your heart heal all over again?

Was it possible if you hadn’t hoped to change your world?

Was it possible, without you?

In silence.

I feel a great satisfaction being in a plac filled with utmost silence. Sometimes it becomes necessary for us to cut away from all sorts of chaos and chatters. And find a place where there is no one but only our self as the companion. Let just take a break from chatting with random people all day and sit quietly having a candid conversation with our own self. It’s the most relaxing thing one could ever do. I think it connects the person better with self. It’s nice having to blurt out all your thoughts that have been clogged throughout the day. Please note: you won’t be judged. Believe me, you feel completely stress-free. You feel a certain calmness around.

Optimistic.

Is it possible for anyone to be optimistic all the time and refrain from thinking all about the negativity that makes you sad? Yes, it is.

Something good happened today, that made me extremely happy. That was my key to positivity all the day. Whenever I would feel like being angry or even bored, that thought suddenly pops up in my mind and I smile. 

Certainly it was an optimistic day. 

Decisions.

Making decisions are the most tedious task one can ever do. While arriving at any conclusion or decision we have to look closely at the consequences. Otherwise a wrong decision could land us into the filthy mud. But a right one would definitely bring in fortunes. 

I look back in the time when  I was pursuing the idea of opting for BMM. It was a surprise to my own self. When I finally zeroed in on this particular one, my family was equally shocked (they had not even heard of such a course). At the end of the day it was completely my decision and my family whole-heartedly supported it.

This is the biggest decision I have ever made in my life and absolutely don’t regret upon it. It’s not the I looked deep into the aftermath or results. But as the days are passing by, I am turning into a passion-driven, ambitions person who could go all the extent(hard-work wise) to clinch her goal.

Days like this.

I had the most relaxing day. Nothing was extra-ordinary but I felt complete poise and happy. Last few weeks have been filled with a lot of confusions, boredom and restlessness. 

I had promised myself to stay calm and positive all this time and today was the rewards of my patience. I am still unprepared for my upcoming exams but I don’t feel an inch of stress or tension. This is a good sign.

I am trying to live an optimistic life everyday through my actions as well as my thoughts.

I enjoyed this day to the fullest and wish for more like these.

Heart and soul.

The matter with my heart is that it still cares for you. It feels safe clinging to all of your stale love. It’s under the pretext of a reconciliation. It relishes under the moments of love and intimacy between us. Maybe, the kind of hopes, dreams and promises you made to it are the reasons for the weakness. 

But you know what, I don’t trust my heart anymore. I rely on my soul instead, that wants to break itself away from the chains of illusions and fake emotions. My soul does not wish to fall on its knees. My heart might be fragile, but the soul isn’t. I can live with a broken heart but not a shattered soul. 

Sooner or later, the heart would finally come to terms with the bitter truth about you but till then my soul would only glisten more.

Quotes.

You must learn to follow your destiny, whatever it may be, with joy. As flowers grow, they show off their beauty and are appreciated by all; then, after they die, they leave their seeds so that others may continue God’s work.

Flowers teach us that nothing is permanent, not their beauty, not even the fact that they will inevitably wilt, because they still give new seeds. Remember this when you feel joy, pain, or sadness. Everything passes, grows old, dies and is reborn.

Even the tallest trees are able to grow from tiny seeds like these. Remember this and try not to rush things.

P.S: Above are the quotes from famed novelist Paulo Coelho’s 2016 book, ‘The Spy’. I recently read the book and fell in love with these beautiful words.

Three stages of my day.

1) I woke up lazily with an urge to do absolutely nothing. I watched the ongoing Australian Open for sometime and was hoping for a good day ahead.

2) In the afternoon, I was the happiest in comparison to the whole week. Re-watching F.R. I. E.N.D.S really made my day a delightful one. In the evening, I had a great book for company while sipping tea. 

3) And now, I am prepping myself for a long week ahead. At the same time, I am waiting for another good weekend. But also don’t want this day to end. 

You know the feeling, don’t you?  

Sunday, please be good

Some people won’t understand that their opinions are just unwelcomed to me. Specially the one’s which are tend to mock me. Is it so difficult minding your own business? 

Enough of these negative thoughts, at least for today. I happened to read somewhere that our thoughts shape the happenings of the life. If you think positive, then everything is bound to be positive and if negativity rules your thoughts then obviously, you know what I mean.

Today is Saturday so I just want to be all positive, happy and cheerful. I absolutely don’t want my Sunday to suck. 

So, adios negativity!

Sunday, please be good!

Time off.

I didn’t want to write anything today. I just wished to get on the bed and fall asleep. It was so tiring to constantly deal with different kinds of  emotions that keep gushing out every now and then. Sometimes things don’t go as you had planned. At the end of the day, you are left in the lurch and thinking about what actually went wrong. Honestly, I am in desperate need of a break. I need some time off all this drama and hullabaloo. 

Well, for now I just need to go to bed!

Hoping for a decent weekend!